In the evenings when you’re alone you think of a lot of things you wish you had done in your life.  You think about people you lost touch with.  You think about people you love and haven’t seen for a long time.  You think about lost opportunity and couldabeens, shouldabeens, and your favorite wouldabeens.  If you just hadn’t done this or that, than that would have happened, or if you had done this instead of that the whole world would have changed, but in fact, you didn’t.  You did what you did.  The choice was made, the die was cast and the world went the way it did and you can’t change it no matter what.  So, let’s stop spinning our tires as my husband would say, and let’s get back into a positive mode again.  It’s beneficial and even a little fun to enter that world of what if, but  if you stay too long it cripples you and you can ‘t find your ticket to get back to the strong positive spot that we need to be in to survive.  So, tonight I tell myself and share with you, my ticket is in my hand and I am heading back to today after an all day visit to coulda, shoulda, woulda.  Boy, it is good to be back.  Even though I have to live with things the way they are today and they are the result of the choices I have made, good or bad, it is still my starting point for tomorrow.  Now I have what I need to move on and try to put my life back together.  The next time I visit that place I won’t stay so long.  It is much better to deal with reality today.